Thursday, June 28, 2012

Back, Aack, Heart Attack.

Good Lord, Y'all. 

Sorry I disappeared- I went on vacation (after 2 years of non-stop work) and have been (trying with all my might to get) back in the groove of things here. It's been a rough couple of days. I had been interviewed for a position at a local company that (while not being Journalism) delved somewhat into writing and getting paid to do so- yesterday I got the "position filled" email. Usually this wouldn't bug me this much.

Perhaps we should rewind time to five minutes before that email hit my google account. Five minutes before this email, we were told that there's a proposed bill going through our state government that could very well shut down the Birth Center. My place of employment. I could get laid off and have 0 job prospects right now. I keep telling myself that it's probably a blessing in disguise and maybe the right job for me is just around the corner and if I just have faith, I won't fall.

I'm really scared that I'm going to be unemployed and what hurts me more is that it's not because I did anything wrong. It's because of a law restricting specific practitioners from caring for people. As ancillary staff, I'm just a pawn.

Now, I know that I k'vetch on here about how I'm not doing what I love BUT I'm employed, with insurance, and have bills to pay. I won't know how to function if I get the boot.

So, here was this rude-awakening-welcome-back-to-reality from a nice, peaceful week with my family at the beach. I don't know what to do but hope for the next, best thing.

Sorry for the rant, sorry if it's depressing. I'll put up some recent photos soon. I also need to get my roll of film developed (because I'm old school like that) and upload my vacation portraits of the family.

xo C.

1 comment:

  1. Sorry it's been rough. This will work out though- you'll survive this just as you have everything that came before it.